I am described as shy, cute and fun. I will beguile you with my perceived innocence. I flirt in subtle ways that endear me to you. I do have a motive in wanting to capture your heart. I want out of this miserable existence. I want a good future for my son. You are the means to this end. Your fascination with China, your arrogance in underestimating my intelligence just makes you an easier target for me to prey upon. I don't care that you are married; being your mistress will elevate my standing with my peers and my family. My area of expertise is to relax you, make you vulnerable and release endorphins in your brain so that you will automatically associate pleasure with me. This ensures you will keep coming back, making it easy for me to help you believe we have a connection. I never intended for you to leave your wife. It was fun being treated like a princess. Getting trips and gifts and letters. Your intensity scares me. I was not sure if this attention was focused on me or merely a need to feel connected to someone. I did not want the responsibility of being your wife. How could I trust you when you were dating me while you were married? My plan to use you to better my life has been successful, but at a cost I did not anticipate.
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